Wednesday, December 08, 2010

Professional hazards - III

Life can come to a standstill when you begin your day early. I got home after a meeting until 11:00 pm the previous night, changed, and got into bed. I slept badly--had dreams about everything that could go wrong with the project or my teammates. Woke up at 6:15 am, changed, and went straight to work to prepare for the meeting at 7:00 am. I planned to come home early for a break and return if necessary. It turned out that I couldn't leave until 11.5 hours later when my work was almost done. And I still have two hour-long meetings to go.

I've tried many times to start early so that I can stop for the day at a decent hour, but that never seems to work out. My planning is lousy and execution is worse. Feels like I fit right into the project team I work with.

And yet, I can't make up my mind about quitting. The temptation of learning and earning the lifestyle we currently lead is too great. I hope to some day be pissed off enough to quit without looking back. And then to make good use of the time not spent earning money.

2 comments:

momofrs said...

Goodness girl...you're working yourself off!!
what insane hours to put in at office!!
Not worth it!! Better cut yourself some slack and slow down.
*ok, time for you to roll your eyes at me....but seriously, its so much easier to preach others than follow it yourself !!Me guilty :D *

simplypallu said...

Yep, easy to preach. My director agreed to help me find a work/life balance, while herself confessing that she found it the most difficult achieve.