At the moment

Song: Feelin' the Same Way
Artist: Norah Jones


The sun just slipped its note below my door
And I can't hide beneath my sheets
I've read the words before so now I know
time has come again for me

And I'm feelin' the same way all over again
Feelin' the same way all over again
Singin' the same lines all over again
No matter how much I pretend

Except for this part....

Another day that I can't find my head
My feet don't look like they're my own
I'll try and find the floor below to stand
I hope I reach it once again

I rather feel like I'm stuck upto my knees in the ground and can't lift myself up :(

And I'm feelin' the same way all over again
Feelin' the same way all over again
Singin' the same lines all over again
No matter how much I pretend

oh...

so many times i've wondered where i've gone
and how i found my way back in
i look around awhile for something lost
maybe i'll find it in the end

And I'm feelin' the same way all over again
Feelin' the same way all over again
Singin' the same lines all over again
No matter how much I pretend

Feelin' the same way all over again
Feelin' the same way all over again
Singin' the same lines all over again
No matter how much I pretend
No matter how much I pretend

To RB

...my favorite author. Your words are like life boats that appear out of nowhere when I'm lost in the raging seas, only to maroon me on an island. An island whose every speck magical. A place where I find inspiration and a quiet confidence in myself. This song is what I would dedicate to you:

Killing Me Softly With His Song
(Roberta Flack)
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Strumming my pain with his fingers,
Singing my life with his words,
Killing me softly with his song,
Killing me softly with his song,
Telling my whole life with his words,
Killing me softly with his song ...

I heard he sang a good song, I heard he had a style.
And so I came to see him to listen for a while.
And there he was this young boy, a stranger to my eyes.

Strumming my pain with his fingers,
Singing my life with his words,
Killing me softly with his song,
Killing me softly with his song,
Telling my whole life with his words,
Killing me softly with his song ...

I felt all flushed with fever, embarrassed by the crowd,
I felt he found my letters and read each one out loud.
I prayed that he would finish but he just kept right on ...

Strumming my pain with his fingers,
Singing my life with his words,
Killing me softly with his song,
Killing me softly with his song,
Telling my whole life with his words,
Killing me softly with his song ...

He sang as if he knew me in all my dark despair.
And then he looked right through me as if I wasn't there.
But he just came to singing, singing clear and strong.

Strumming my pain with his fingers,
Singing my life with his words,
Killing me softly with his song,
Killing me softly with his song,
Telling my whole life with his words,
Killing me softly with his song ...

He was strumming, oh, he was singing my song.
Killing me softly with his song,
Killing me softly with his song,
Telling my whole life with his words,
Killing me softly with his song ...
With his song ...

I could be a friend forever

...only if you want me to. After the initial surge of vengeful feelings died down, I thought of another possibility. One where you took responsibility for your actions, admitted your mistake, and asked for pardon from those your hurt.

Once we get that ego of yours out of the way, a world of true friendship could open up. One without the need to conceal your intimacies with others. One where we can truly share our feelings and our friends. One where we can still be there for each other during both the difficult times and exhilarating moments. One where you don't need to be on your gaurd all the time, because you aren't hiding anything. Where you feel comfortable being yourself because all you have friends all around who truly care for you and are forthright and honest with you.

If only you care for that. There's so much I want to give, but you aren't ready to accept. You're too insecure to find any peace in your life. If only you could let your ego crumble. You'll find a beautiful life waiting for you.

Pushing aside the dilemma of whether I should post this here or not. If I try to be discrete about these things, I'll probably never say anything on this space, and it's is not right: this is my space to vent.

Words

It's not the first English song I ever heard, nor is it the best. But sometimes, it's just something I can't stop humming. So here you go... enjoy!

And for those who love the lyrics...

Smile an ever lasting smile
A smile can bring you near to me
Don't ever let me find you gone
'Cause that would bring a tear to me

This world has lost its glory
Let's start a brand new story now, my love

You think that I don't even mean
A single word I say

It's only words
And words are all I have
To take your heart away

Talk in ever lasting words
And dedicate them all to me
And I will give you all my life
I'm here if you should call to me

You think that I don't even mean
A single word I say

It's only words
And words are all I have
To take your heart away

It's only words
And words are all I have
To take your heart away

Ta da da da da da da...

This world has lost its glory
Let's start a brand new story now, my love

You think that I don't even mean
A single word I say

It's only words
And words are all I have
To take your heart away

It's only words
And words are all I have
To take your heart away

My Californian affair

Who else would let a 62-kilo, pockmarked, nearing-her-30s girl with a borderline personality disorder ride (er... drive) her?

((wink, wink))

Phir dekhiye...

Aankhon mein jiski, koi to khwaab hai
Khush hai wohi jo, thoda betaab hai
Zindagi mein koi, arzoo kijiye
Phir dekhiye

Hothon pe jiske, koi to geet hai
Woh haare bhi to, uski hi jeet hai
Dil mein jo geet hai, gunguna lijiye
Phir dekhiye

Yaadon mein jiski, kisi ka naam hai
Sapnon ke jaisi, uski har shaam hai
Koi to ho jise, apna dil dijiye
Phir dekhiye

Khwaab bun yeh zara
Geet sun yeh zara
Phool chun yeh zara
Phir dekhiye

PS: Thanks to sphinx, who reminded me of this. I'm sure she's basking in this song right now too. Others, please grab a CD of Rock On.

The Perception Personality Image Test

My result...

HFPC - The Photographer

Humanity, Foreground, Big Picture, and Color

You perceive the world with particular attention to humanity. You focus on what's in front of you (the foreground) and how that fits into the larger picture. You are also particularly drawn towards the colors around you. Because of the value you place on humanity, you tend to seek out other people and get energized by being around others. You like to deal directly with whatever comes your way without dealing with speculating possibilities or outcomes you can't control. You are in tune with all that is around you and understand your life as part of a larger whole. You are a down-to-earth person who enjoys going with the flow.

The Perception Personality Types:

Take The Perception Personality Image Test at HelloQuizzy

PS: Found this through Stinky Paw.